I'm getting very frustrated.. Tournament is starting tomorrow! NO.. i have a bad feeling about all this! Got to leave class early tmr and have to miss E maths quiz and Physics test. NO, i don't want to take it alone at the science lab.. i want to take it with the class.. i DREAD all this.. ARGH!

Should be going out later to get some Valentine's gift and i have already prepared a special gift for sylvia and xiaoyan.. haha! I really hope that tmr will pass very soon.. i really can't take it anymore.. i hope that i won't break down in front of all the rest of the people.. cox i have to be strong..

I just realised that the results of the Chinese O's are coming out soon.. i'm really very worried.. stressed to the limits.. I have to get my As.. it's very important to me! But what if i don't get it.. I really can't imagine what i would do.. *cry in the toilet* i think after i get back my results. Or remain in a solemn mood forever.. HELP! I'm sure everyone will get their As and *yingzi* is the only one who will not get it..

Got back Chemistry test on friday and what i would say is that it was disasterous.. FAILED! Think i was one of the few who failed.. So many people passed it.. All of them have got 20 and above and i've got like 15.5! What's this .. I am feeling very down.. but maybe it's because i didn't even study hard for it.. I just merely browse through the book.. finished studying in 10 mins then i went to sleep.. i mean this is what the results shows.. If you didnt study you fail..

BUT... BUT.. there are just so many fakers around... next is a extract from them " NO! I have not finished studying .. i sure fail one! " Fakers around.. pls don't say this in front of me.. i will start scolding you i tell you.. Who will not study hard for a test??? You name me if you can .. and i will gladly apologise for what i am saying now..

However there are really people around who really didnt study and could too score well for theirs test because these people are really smart people.. they can remember what they have learnt.. but they are so rare.. or rather 1 in a 1000...

Alright.. i'm getting so worked up here.. maybe because TT is really driving me crazy.. plus the chem results really added on to my solemn mood.. HELP!! I need to de-stres... AND and.. i have found a method to de-stress... playing Mahjong.. haha! Go try it if you have the chance .. it's really nice. !! Haha..

I will not be influenced by people around me anymore.. i will not listen to their fake words.. i will start studying hard for all upcoming tests and score well.. I will not play anymore.. other then reserving the weekends for my mahjong session... *yingzi* begans her new life from this moment.. haha! I will make it into AJ.. If i can get any better results. i will go VJ... haha!